Disclaimer: The beginning of this post does start off mentioning my experience with depression if that’s a trigger for you I wouldn’t read this.
The earliest I remember having the feeling of I don’t belong in this world and being so angry when I woke up still breathing is six years old. The oldest I saw myself being alive was 22 years old I figured I would kill myself before then. I have had this constant battle against my enemy, depression. I could be surrounded by my friends or family members and still feel alone. I was/still am very much an introverted person. It’s sometimes hard for me to connect with people.
Those feelings and thoughts contributed to my depression. My depression is always worst in the winter. Alongside anxiety and depression I have seasonal affective disorder (SAD). I hate the way I feel on depression medication so I stopped taking them and looked into other alternatives.
Light therapy is my current way of handling my disorder. I do a session of thirty minutes or longer a day in a room with an artificial light box either once or twice a day. I’ve been really responding well to it! Alongside therapy I’ve been exercising more to keep my serotonin levels up.
What does all of this have to do with my blog? Well, I’m using this blog as a way to realize the positive aspects in my life and share it with you all. Whether it’s finding a new recipe, crafting something, writing about something new I discovered that day, or anything else in my life. As long as it’s positive I want to write it here just to have something to look at when I feel the rush of negative thoughts or bad moments in my life.
Why the name Jubilee and a cup of tea? Jubilee is an occasion of rejoicing or festivity and I enjoy the word because it sounds like the most fun you’ll ever have. The “cup of tea part” is mainly because I’m a tea addict (I have a shelf just for tea in my cabinet) and it rhymed haha. I hope you enjoy the journey I’m going on this year and all the positive aspects of it.
I look forward to sharing it with you!